WHY I HAVE THE TIME TO DO THIS

Today is an specialy boring day. Probably, like all the days in my life, if I keep working here.
Yes, I may be a little pessimist, but I'ts normal if the must part of my work I'm alone and I have to feign that I'm doing something usefull for the company. Sometimes I feel very helpfull and I'm very encouraged to learn and brainwash my mind untill I have the real answer.